Hello, world (and other)

I started this blog in a weird moment of my life. Things changed, for the better, after years of blurry marching. Steps have been taken, life changing ones even, but as I arrive in a state of happiness I feel empty. Something is missing, I think back to how I used to be as a kid more often, what I thought about and what I created with my hands, not thinking if it was good enough, I simply had fun sharing my inner workings with the world, more than often it was my only way to connect to others.

At some point I stopped doing that, most likely the death of my father when I was barely an adult, years of alcoholism and drug abuse kept me going, functioning, but I lost my spark along the way. This is a try to create without waiting for approval. Trying to ease my running mind by putting stuff down. It will be messy, badly written and probably not good but I am excited to have a place to share and start collecting my thoughts and art.

The decision to make this public was not to seek approval but more to keep myself accountable. Someone MIGHT find this website and have a look, maybe no one ever sees this. Either way there will be a record, a collection of myself in a little corner of the internet. One that I can come back too and one that might help or inspire someone else. I hope more people try to find their way back to an honest version of themselves behind the struggles of day to day life.

The name of this blog is a word i just learned today, i will leave its definition here.

A “Zäsur” (pronounced tseh-ZOOR) is an abrupt break or turning point. After this break, events or situations are much different than before. The word comes from the Latin word caesura, which means “to cut” or “to carve”.

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